When they say the struggle is real, the struggle is real.
Analysis paralysis is defined by Wikipedia as “an anti-pattern, the state of over-analyzing (or over-thinking) a situation so that a decision or action is never taken, in effect paralyzing the outcome.”
But why? Why is it that I can’t seem to make a decision, not matter how simple. I am at a point of my life where I am still transitioning and I need to be making decisions and I can’t seem to. Everything is just a “whatever” and it needs not to be. I can remember a time where my mom used to yell at me, all the time, because I would be so quick to respond “I don’t care” to certain situations.
If my room was dirty, I didn’t care. If I wasn’t granted permission to hang out with friends, fine. I didn’t care. No allowance one week? Okay, whatever, I didn’t care. Got a ‘C’ on a test, didn’t care.
It was what it was. It was partially tough skin, it was partially I’d get what I want eventually, and it was partially that I really didn’t care. Horrible. I carried that attitude with me into my adulthood and now look at me. This same “I don’t care” is biting my in the a**.
Sometimes I wonder where I would be if I made decisions firmly and confidently. Decision making is not something I’m good at. Honestly, I try to avoid them at all costs. It’s just too much pressure, I feel. What if I’m making the wrong decision? What if I’m limiting my options? I love options and probably because I suck at making decisions. These are all the things that run through my mind as I have to make a decision. Just like the definition says, I would over-analyze a situation and end up never making a decision. I literally float through situations and just ignore the fact that anything needs to be done. It sucks, really.